Thursday, September 8, 2011

Saying Goodbye to my SIC

I've been busy. I've been lazy. I haven't updated my uber-fun blog in quite a while for a number of reason - most of which do not matter. So why today? Why choose to reach out to the few of you who have actually read my attempts at humor or sharing a perspective on life that seems, perhaps, a bit twisted...or tilted to say the least. Because you are a safe. Most of you don't know me so I don't have to worry about the 'personal' factor. But I feel like I have to say something out loud! I actually would love to SCREAM these words - maybe saying them will make the pain vanish into the thin air once they're said. My SIC committed suicide four weeks ago today. There I said it. She was actually, my sister-in-law but if you've read most of my posts you'll find that she's been a major part of my life and therefore she gained the title of "Sister in Crime" - it was all in fun. I thought we were having so much fun. But fun cannot mend a heart that has been shattered or cure the dark world called "depression". I didn't know how deep her depression was and I swear to you.....I didn't have one glimpse of a clue that this could have been a remote thought in her mind. Suicide. No one could have imagined that this beautiful smiling...always, family centered girl could choose to leave us all behind - to pick up the pieces of this violent tragedy and move on with our own lives....without her in it. But I will go on - we all will. Each of us crosses our own paths of sorrow and pain and go on. They say 'time heals all wounds' (it does not). Love, however, does. Does someone need to hear from you just how much you love them? Don't wait another minute.
My sweet sister.....this is how I will remember her.


  1. I am so, so sorry for the loss of your SIC. Keeping you in my thoughts....

  2. My heart aches for you! I am so sorry for your loss. I have adopted the title SIC from you to one of my friends and can't even imagine what you feel at this moment. There are so many things that we will never understand or want to accept, but deep down you will realize that life must go on and you have to live in the present moment. Xoxo

  3. I am so very sorry to hear of your loss.

    Thank you for your reminder to tell our loved ones how much we love them. We all need to hear it and say it more than we often do.

    xo xo xo


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